The Mirage
Growing up I had the best things around, but I still planned for the worst, and this has helped me a lot, but in this story I really did not have any backup plans, let us just say my hopes were high.
After graduation and service I did not have any problems getting a job, so I started preparing myself for the next stage of my life (the settling down stage). I quickly moved into my apartment fully furnished and then I started preparing myself for marriage to my college sweetheart, at the same time I started saving cash in one of my numerous accounts for my unborn children, we had already decided that were going to settle for three children at most, so we started working towards making our dreams a reality. I was working in a blue chip company in Victoria Island, and she was also working somewhere around my office, so we always had lunch every Wednesday, and trust me I really felt successful.
After two years of our graduation we got married, and that day was the best day of my life she looked more beautiful than any other day, I really saw myself so lucky to have gotten her by my side damn…She was beautiful.
Three months after our marriage she took in, and I knew the next stage of my life had started (the fatherhood stage) and I refused to slack, so I worked like for 8 hours a day got home early rested and also took classes on how to change the diapers and all those things needed for caring for the baby, just to ease the stress on her when the baby arrived, she was already planning to get off duty so as to help herself and the baby.
During the ninth month, I was so on the edge every phone call I received in the office scared me I just felt they called to tell me that she was in the delivery room, my concentration was not stable, I really loved my wife, so I was ready to do anything to show that, I relinquished my office driver of my duties and placed him on standby for my wife, her sister was also in the house with one of her close friends. God I was desperate to be a father, her room was set with everything she would need, sometimes I wandered away at work seeing myself carrying my baby taking her to parks and just watching her grow, it always ended with me in tears of joy. So around the 10pm on the 15th day her water broke and then the hour was finally here, I told the driver to take charge so I don’t kill everybody in my anxiety to be a father. We got to the hospital and then she went in to the delivery room, God I was so on my feet, every man wearing a doctors cloak I went to ask after my wife, I could not wait to see the smile on her face and joy in my eyes to behold my daughter. Finally the doctor came out and told me something that made me fall flat on the floor, I had a daughter but my wife was in the intensive care unit and needed to see me urgently, I stumbled to my feet and got into the room. She was barely alive and the she started stuttering some words, she held my hands and said “baby, I’m sorry it had to come this, I really love you, I spent most times writing notes for the baby on my system there about 11 of them, please give her one letter for her birthday, please don’t forget to show love to her as you have shown to me. I really wished I saw her grow. My heart is always with you, I will always be by your side; also give her that necklace you bought for me during our honeymoon. Tell her how much I loved her. Then she said, promise me you will always love me” Just as I said I promise. She gave up, men my whole world froze, time seem not to move anymore, my heart beat dropped as one part felt like it had died, to breath was a problem I was panting.. My wife lay dead in front of me. I was crying bitterly. And then with tears in my eyes and every where looking blur, I woke up from my dream looked at the time 3.00 am, six more hours to my marriage with her. What do I do?




Sean –Kelz™
©. 2008

14 Questions
If I say this prayer will it be answered?
If I have this dream will it come true?
If I make these wishes will they come to pass?
If I utter these words what would you do?
If I call your name would you answer?
If I was taken would you feel a missing part?
If my days ended so soon, will you still think of me?
If the birds sang our song, will you be there?
If the whole world bowed at your feet
Will I still be the one you see?
If I never had all the riches, would you want to cover my ashes?
If you heard all the melodies in this world, would mine still be the best?
If the sun and the moon bowed to you, would you still love and respect me?
If I got on my knees, what would you say?
You see, I’m asking you these very questions because I pray and hope for your face to be the first thing that greets me with the warm rays of the morning light and the last with that smile that makes me believe there is God who was so patient to make you for me even when I don’t deserve you as my gift.


Sean-Kelz™
2008